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had an NDE episode in 2012. I was giving birth to my second child for 50 hours, unsuccessfully, which ended up in severe complications, so I was taken to emergency surgery. Doctors didn't have time to give me a full anesthesia, and I supposed to be awake during the surgery. I already lost approximately 2 l of blood and I felt that body was dying. When I heard my daughter is crying I felt that nothing was holding me here, and then same second some creatures came to me and ripped me out of my body. I found myself flying on a crazy speed in a black cosmos, it was like open space but without stars. I felt someone is here near me, but at the same time I felt very lonely and isolated too. Speed was so crazy, that I felt I flew millions of kilometers in few seconds. I tried to figure out what is going on, and then I slowly realized, that I am probably dead. I tried to ask these creatures, if I am dead, and realized that I can't. I had no mouth. I tried to move around and stop my flight, but I could not do that either, because I had no arms and legs either. I was a glowing sphere, flying with a speed of light in silent lonely cosmos. Suddenly these creatures started giving me instructions, it was not words, but more like thoughts they gave me. They told me something like - look what you can do now. I understood the instruction and started experimenting with my new "body" - I could expand to a giant sphere and contract to a smallest entity possible without any damage to myself. In that moment I did not remember anything about myself, not even my name. I remembered only, that I am leaving my two small children and probably will never see them again. I felt lonely, sad and scared, I did not agree to this. And creatures, that were following me, understood that. They said to me something like, if I can translate it to human words - ok, whatever, you can come back if you want. The same moment I felt that I am flying backwards. And then I started falling. And then I fell very hard into my own body and opened my eyes. I saw the operation lamp over me and many people working, and a blue surgery room. The feeling of flight was gone. I felt my arms tightened to the surgical table, but I did feel now that I have arms. Anesthesia did not wear off yet, but I knew I had legs too. I asked the nurse if I have been dead for a while. She said no. Later I read in my medical journal, that my trauma was so severe that one surgeon could not fix it, they had to call one more surgeon and they finally managed to sew me up, stop the bleeding and save my daughter too. But probably when it was not estimated yet, if I can be saved or not, I went to that limbo, but managed to come back.
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